Things I Learned While Talking To Myself

Anonymous asked: WOW @ tumblrdatinggame(.)com WTF is this.. my little brother's roommate is on this and I think I saw you too lol

i am quite confused….? 

who is this?

i flew out to south dakota from minneapolis last night and i am finally reunited with my one and only sweetheart, adam :) we are so happy to be able to see each other again! we both finally had a good night’s sleep last night after two weeks of missing each other horribly. I am so happy to be able to spend time with him again, even if it is for a short while. 

we are currently playing diablo 3. and league of legends. and killing floor. and probably will be playing portal 2 in a bit here. 

:) :) :)

this is great :)

good day.

I HAVE DIABLO III.

OMFG. :D

Battletag: LebHalfBreed#1102

next time you are having a bad day because a game isn’t working atm and decide to take it out on me, think about who you are hurting and how much it fucking hurts me. i am incredibly upset and did not fucking deserve to be snapped at. :’( :’( :’(

thanks for asking how my day was. it was SHIT. yet i still spent my whole day trying to make your day better.

so alone, and just want to cry :’(

so i had a lot of fun LARPing today with my friends :) also, thanks kibbles for this pic with me in it :) I am the one with the black pants, black jacket, and holding the red staff :)

so last night i spent hours crying with my mom.

adam and i spent a wonderful day together, we went and saw The Avengers, and cuddled.

we end up watching parks and rec on netflix in my room and fall asleep cuddling on my bed in my room with the lights on and my door open.

my dad comes over unannounced, looks in my room, runs upstairs and starts SCREAMING AND SWEARING at my mom in arabic calling me a slut and calling her a slut. he literally makes my mom cry and keeps yelling at her for being a fucking slut in arabic and a bitch for letting me nap with my boyfriend (of literally 3 years, 2 months) in her house. he goes outside to his car STILL YELLING with his wife (who we love) and my baby sister Sarah who was sleeping in the car and gets in still yelling horrible things (GREAT TO YELL AND SCARE THE SHIT OUT OF HANAA HIS WIFE AND MY BABY SISTER) and fucking leaves.

he then proceeds to text me that i am a slut and he wants nothing to do with me and that i have disgraced him and that i am not allowed over to his house anymore.

FUCK THIS. I WOULDN’T GIVE ADAM UP FOR ANYTHING AND HE LOVES ME MORE AND TREAT ME BETTER THAN MY DAD EVER HAS. WHICH IS FUCKED UP. i know my dad loves me, but seriously, NOT talking to your daughter for two years and not coming to her graduation or grad party is FUCKED UP, ALL BECAUSE HE FOUND OUT I HAD A BF. UGH. 

so he just started talking to me again like a couple months ago and now its all FUCKED OVER AGAIN. I CANT SEE SARAH, HE WONT HELP PAY FOR COLLEGE (not that he has helped at all yet), HE WONT HELP MY MOM WITH OUR HOUSE, and HE WONT FUCKING HELP ME OUT WITH ANYTHING. 

THIS FUCKING SUCKS. UGH. great start to my sunmer…

also, adam leaves tomorrow back to USD for the summer which makes me really REALLY sad and we just spent tonight together watching the office and parks and rec and he just left and we both ended up crying as he left because he’s leaving tomorrow….:’( :’( 

this summer is going to suck….i really need some friends to distract me…:’(

if you have read this whole thing, sorry its all mopey and sad, soon ill numb up enough to stop crying and not deal with all of this all summer.